We just got back from our first beach trip as a family of three! I was so excited to introduce the beach to Weston because it is one of my favorite places to be. We were in the Outer Banks for two nights for my friends wedding. Too short in my opinion, but fun nonetheless.
I will be adding pictures to this post as soon as they get loaded to the computer.
Weston loved the sand. He had a blast crawling around in it and trying to eat it. The water was a different story. We took him down and let the water run over his feet and he freaked! It was a bit cold though so hopefully next time is a little better.
I do have to say that I was a little hurt by some of my so-called friends. There were quite a few of us that went down for the wedding. I found out when down there that the rest of them had gone in on a house together but didn't invite us. Now, I understand if they didn't want us because we had Weston and they wanted to party but they could have, at the VERY least, invited us over to the house the day before the wedding when they were celebrating.
I have felt for a while that these "friends" are some of those friends that are only around for a short period of time. They were my coworkers before I became a SAHM. I don't know...maybe they hold it against me. Either way, I have found throughout my life that there are very few people that remain.
I am also having a down time right now. I have been running for 4 months or so now and have actually GAINED weight. I also added the Zumba DVD to my off days (although this was a recent addition) and I gained more weight.
I am getting pretty down on myself right now. I have never been thin but I have never been this heavy either. I decided today (and some may judge me for this) that I am going back on low carb. It is honestly the only thing that has ever worked for me. I realize that this has to be a lifelong commitment and I'm ok with that. I have tried counting calories, fat, etc and that just isn't working. I seriously cannot stand myself right now. Hopefully the low carb things works as well as it did when we were engaged.
I am worried that I am going to lose my supply though. I am hoping to make it to a minimum of a year of nursing so I am going to be watching that closely. That is the reason I have held off for so long but I have had it and need to see change before I lose all motivation. I really want to be the healthiest I can be, not just for me but for my son. I don't want him to grow up with an overweight parent setting a bad example.
Anyway, that's where I am right now. Wish me luck!
I'm sorry you are feeling down about your weight right now. I think if a low carb diet works for you then that is great. Everyone has something that works for them, for me it happens to be counting calories. Even if I exercise like crazy, if I don't count calories I can't lose weight.
ReplyDeleteI am in a similar battle with my weight right now. I was too afraid of cutting calories when Jake was nursing all the time, but now that he is down to just 2 times a day I feel much more comfortable with it.
I also suffered from an eating disorder in college so I really try to keep on top of my weight so I don't get anxious about gaining too much and get back into that trap again.
Hopefully the low carb works for you.
Thanks Brooke. I will say that you are beautiful and look great! I know that it is harder to see it yourself but wanted you to know what I see. Good luck with feeling better about yourself as well. :)
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