A little of this, a little of that

We just got back from our first beach trip as a family of three!  I was so excited to introduce the beach to Weston because it is one of my favorite places to be.  We were in the Outer Banks for two nights for my friends wedding.  Too short in my opinion, but fun nonetheless. 

I will be adding pictures to this post as soon as they get loaded to the computer.

Weston loved the sand.  He had a blast crawling around in it and trying to eat it.  The water was a different story.  We took him down and let the water run over his feet and he freaked!  It was a bit cold though so hopefully next time is a little better.

I do have to say that I was a little hurt by some of my so-called friends.  There were quite a few of us that went down for the wedding.  I found out when down there that the rest of them had gone in on a house together but didn't invite us.  Now, I understand if they didn't want us because we had Weston and they wanted to party but they could have, at the VERY least, invited us over to the house the day before the wedding when they were celebrating.

I have felt for a while that these "friends" are some of those friends that are only around for a short period of time.  They were my coworkers before I became a SAHM.  I don't know...maybe they hold it against me.  Either way, I have found throughout my life that there are very few people that remain. 

I am also having a down time right now.  I have been running for 4 months or so now and have actually GAINED weight.  I also added the Zumba DVD to my off days (although this was a recent addition) and I gained more weight. 

I am getting pretty down on myself right now.  I have never been thin but I have never been this heavy either.  I decided today (and some may judge me for this) that I am going back on low carb.  It is honestly the only thing that has ever worked for me.  I realize that this has to be a lifelong commitment and I'm ok with that.  I have tried counting calories, fat, etc and that just isn't working.  I seriously cannot stand myself right now.  Hopefully the low carb things works as well as it did when we were engaged.

I am worried that I am going to lose my supply though.  I am hoping to make it to a minimum of a year of nursing so I am going to be watching that closely.  That is the reason I have held off for so long but I have had it and need to see change before I lose all motivation.  I really want to be the healthiest I can be, not just for me but for my son. I don't want him to grow up with an overweight parent setting a bad example.

Anyway, that's where I am right now.  Wish me luck!

Where have I been?

And where did my baby go?  I haven't been a very good blogger lately but I just can't seem to find the time.  The little man is all over the place now and rarely takes a decent nap so he keeps me pretty busy during the day and I am just exhausted at night.

We have our first beach trip this weekend and I can't wait!  The water will be too cold but I'm excited to see what Weston does with the sand. 

We also went to MI a couple of weekends ago which meant Weston's first plane ride.  He did exceptionally well with the plane.  Getting back on schedule once we were home...that's a different story.

First Plane Ride:

In other news...Weston is pulling up on everything and anything.  In fact, we were at a play date in the park and he tried pulling up on a 5 month old little girl!  Luckily her mom and I have become pretty good friends and she just laughed when I stopped him.

He also now has 4 teeth!  The top two teeth came in at the exact same time.  I miss the gummy smile but his teeth are so cute (unless he trying to bite me).

My new favorite hoodie:

Mother's Day:

One of my new favorite pics:

I have so much to update but I just don't have the energy or patience right now.  Hopefully I will get back into blogging more often.  Of course, with the trip this weekend, I won't have time again.

I do want to talk about something that has really had a profound effect on me.  A friend had to give birth to her twin babies early after a long, difficult road.  The babies, a boy and girl, were born just shy of 30 weeks.  Her baby girl passed away shortly after. 
I cannot imagine what she must be going through.  A loss like that is beyond sad, it is tragic and no one should ever have to experience such a thing.  I found that I have held my little boy a little tighter lately and have cherished our time together a little more.  Please keep my friend and her family in your thoughts and prayers as she grieves the loss of her daughter and fights for her son's life.  My heart is broken for her and her family and I haven't stopped thinking of them.

I read this quote shortly after my miscarriage, and it has stuck with me.

An angel in the book of life wrote down my baby's birth,

Then whispered as she closed the book,

"Too beautiful for Earth"

-Unknown